It has been well over a year since I opened this blog and wrote my first entry. So I will start with today - where I am in my walk with my Lord Jesus.
I have left the corporate life and am now pursuing my passion of crafting for others so they are left with a product that speaks their heart to their loved ones (www.MarysMemorables.com).
I made this decision knowing that it would be an uphill climb and would require more faith and trust in God than ever before. For so many years of my life the jobs, career and subsequent $$ came rather easily. Too easily so that I became deceived into believing that it all came because of my intelligence and hard work! What a fool I was and still am yet in some respects.
I have purposely asked God to refine me while venturing on this self-employment journey. Now I am battling fears and pray for answers to the question if I am being too tight-fisted regarding giving to others. I have been much more prudent in my spending on myself but have I gone too far in the other direction?
My life scripture this year is Matthew 6:33 - "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." All these things are the things we all need - food, clothing, housing, etc. God knows what I need to live on this earth but I need to come to know Him and fully trust Him - that what He says is 100% truth - listening to no other lies. I believe that God has given me a spiritual gift of faith - a consistent enabling faith that truly believes God in the face of overwhelming obstacles and human impossibilities, and for greater things. As God is teaching me that HE is my provider in all things I am also being convicted that I do not pray urgently and consistently therefore not using my gift of faith as I should. I believe this is part of my refinement and how I need to seek first His kingdom...
The sermon today was on idols and casting them away in our lives. I can be given over to fearing I don't have enough money which can consume me into a state of worry than of faith and action. It will also immobilize me from giving out of my heart. I had hope today when I heard God say to me (not audibly but in my spirit) to pray for others instead of worrying about myself. I know that He instructed me last year to pray for the souls of those He planned to bring into my path and not for my sales. I confess that I have missed that mark and ask His forgiveness and ask God to be my guide - His Word a lamp unto my feet.
So in short - discipline - daily reading of God's Word so I am battle-ready and also a deep belief that daily prayer is crucial - a matter of life and death....Pray for me that I am disciplined and refined to do the good works that God planned for me to do for HIS glory alone....
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